taka_can_cook

I feel this is really important

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 06:16:19 GMT

I love my characters...Taka is not just a character, but a part of me. (Even if I know that this is just an RP, and not Real Life.) And Horio is crazy fun. I love some of the things that go on around here, and some of the people, too.

And I FINALLY got my Taka muse back. I finally got him straight after all the shit that broke him and Friday, I was so happy with him, I’d talked to someone about helping Taka and helping her character at the same time. But now, he’s again lost. I’ve weighed my options before, when something went wrong. I’ve written a drop notice before, but I never posted it. I always thought I could work through it. But now, I feel like every time I get back up again, I'll get kicked back down, and I’m not sure it’s worth it.

And it would be worth it, if my characters had friends here, and people they could talk to. Not ignored, or made fun of. But, for people who are so into their cliques, and groups that they don't see anyone else. I’ve been here for over a year, but I still feel like I’m brand new. People are just too stuck inside their own cliques to reach out to other people, and for those not inside the cliques, it hurts. It's really hard. And the cliques are so tight that if you're outside there is absolutely no way of getting in one. And I’m lying, and I’m not the only one that feels this way. But maybe I’m the only one to openly admit it.
When the “How’s your Driving” idea came up, I thought it was a bad idea. But, of course, I didn’t want to cause any trouble, so I said nothing. Than, when it was posted, I went just to see what kinds of comments were on there. Almost all of them were nice, and encouraging.

I ~~know~~ hope the “how’s your driving” wasn’t meant to be a personal attack, but this was just the last straw.

I’ve cried enough tears, and I don’t want to do it again, bottom line.

I am officially dropping both Kawamura Takashi and Horio Satoshi. Good luck to everyone else, and the future of TeniPuriU

I don't want to upset anyone, but I just...really needed to get this off my chest.

****And please, this is not to everyone. Some of you guys are really great people (And I want to still stay in contact with you!), and some I wished I got a chance to get to know you. (And maybe still get a chance to get to know you. AIM is doodlebug kh04) But for the few this is directed at, I hope you realize what you’re doing. ****

Wow

Sun, 14 Sep 2008 17:20:10 GMT

I have good news and bad news, it seems.

The good news, I guess you'd call it, was in the cross dressing competition, I became the runner-up. Which means I received a gift certificate for a restaurant.

The bad news is, I have no one to go with me. Jun broke up with me last night. ~~I guess I just can't keep someone happy...~~

(ooc: Jun = Dan. Using a different name cause Dan's re-start.)

I think...I can't keep someone happy. I mean...really. Things were going so good with Jun and suddenly, he wants to break up. The same crap Se...Yukimura told me. "It's not you, it's me. I just need time, and I don't want to hurt you." Well...it hurts. A lot. I try so hard...and only end up with a broken heart. Is it...even worth it? I mean...to try and reach out so someone? I'm beginning to think it might not be. I don't understand how people can do this all the time. I've only tried twice, and I feel like my heart's about to shiver up. I guess not everyone can be as lucky as mom and dad...

Classes

Sun, 07 Sep 2008 17:43:09 GMT

Classes start up again soon, and I'm really excited this semester. I've heard that the teacher that I've been trying to take a class for a year now, has gotten better, and I'll be able to take it. It should be really fun!

Oh...wow.

Fri, 29 Aug 2008 23:20:36 GMT

Alright so...I just got the box my mother and sister sent me with all the clothing for the contest on Saturday and...I have to say, I'm wondering if I can just hide under the bed instead of getting up and going. Why did I agree and sign up for this, again?

Some excitement

Sun, 24 Aug 2008 22:08:13 GMT

It seems that my little sister is doing so well in volleyball, that she has been made a starter, and they're going to the semi-finals soon! I'm so proud of her for following her heart instead of what she thought I wanted for her.

Sakuno-chan, Lunch was fun, and we should do it again. Let me know when you need help moving!~

Goof-up

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 20:28:38 GMT

Have you ever gone into work, thinking you have the morning shift, and realize, as they're all giving you funny looks, that you have the days mixed up and you happen to be...two days early?

I was so embarrassed, and while I was walking out, one of the old woman asked me a question, so I stopped to talk to her.

Three hours later, I finally left. The woman, I found her name was Suki, was a sweet, wonderful old woman with lots of stories to tell and just wanting someone to talk to. I promised her a card game next time I came, and think I might go back tomorrow. Maybe she'd like some of my baked goods. (Though, I would have to see if she's able to eat them before-some of the elderly have restricted diets)

Anyway, Taichi-kun, would you like to do something this weekend? I do work Sunday evening, but before six, I'm free.

Baking

Sun, 10 Aug 2008 03:11:03 GMT

I've had a bit of a baking bug lately, and have been trying recipes left and right.

...And found myself overflowing with baked goods. So many that work holds their stomachs at even the sight of me carrying a plate. Anyone want to come over and take some off my hands?

oh no.

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 07:25:37 GMT

So...I might have mentioned to my little sister that there was the cross-dressing competition, and she was so excited, and asked if she could help me and...I couldn't say no to her, because she's been feeling left out so....

She sent me links of dresses she wants me to try on. They are all...those strapless fitted than poofy princessy dresses.

I am a man, and I have broad shoulders.

I think I need some help...

Stupid...

Mon, 28 Jul 2008 17:54:34 GMT

I can't believe I forgot to sign up, after talking about it so much. But, I'll be there to root everyone on. ~~Especially Taichi-kun.~~

A..cross dressing competition? I remember last years slightly (I think Kaidou won?), but...I'm not sure if it's my cup of tea. Though...I did miss out on the first one, so maybe I should be more spirited.

Just a question...

Sat, 26 Jul 2008 01:29:55 GMT

Before the sign ups end, would anyone like to play doubles with me? ~~I'm afraid I'd fail miserably at singles.~~

Musings~

Tue, 22 Jul 2008 01:14:54 GMT

This tennis tournament sounds interesting. I keep debating whether or not I want to join, and if I do...should it be singles, or would anyone like to play doubles with me? I'm sort of rusty...

List of questions for friends: (I dislike the phone, forgive me. )

-Kaidou-kun, shall we do lunch this week? I'm free for lunch every day.

-Inui, again, the offer stands for a celebration. And, if you need help moving, let me know. I have a car, after all.

-Ryou-kun, Thanks for suggesting Wall-E. It was great, and I think Taichi-kun really liked it.

-Taichi-kun, I have a new flavor of ice cream, wanna try it together?

Happy Birthday

Thu, 17 Jul 2008 00:30:36 GMT

Happy Birthday Kaidou-kun. Maybe I could take you out to lunch or dinner sometime soon to celebrate? You know, we never did get together earlier, when you asked to so...maybe we can now.

In the middle of the cooking~

Sun, 13 Jul 2008 20:13:26 GMT

The Zoo was a blast. It was amazing, and I'm glad you suggested it, Taichi-kun. Shall we go out again, maybe on Wednesday?

Ryou-kun! You never told me what you wanted to eat tomorrow! Let me know?

I'd better get back to cooking, though, for now.

I think for once...this is a pretty happy post

Fri, 11 Jul 2008 17:58:24 GMT

Work's been playing around with my hours and work time, so it's varying from week to week now. But, I'm off until Monday now, so I'm trying to get all these little things that have seemed to pile up on me.

Hey~ I was wondering if you wanted to go to the Zoo on Saturday? I was looking online, and it should be a lot of fun. There's a cool restaurant that's close by, so I thought we could eat dinner there, after a day at the zoo? Lemme know if this works for you!

I just wanted to see if you and your husband wanted to come over on Sunday evening to try out all the dishes. Let me know if that works for you two.

Oh. (to Inui, Sengoku and Yukimura)

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 21:53:09 GMT

I just had a thought...If the wedding invitations haven't been sent out, and the guest list hasn't been made...how do we know how much food I need to make? I was looking through my notes and I was told between 50-75 people for food but...how many are invited...and of those, who are coming? I take it I should wait until invitations come back, to start mapping out quantity, correct?

I am

Sat, 05 Jul 2008 21:57:52 GMT

I'm home again.

Bloody Hell

Wed, 25 Jun 2008 22:44:14 GMT

I...I'm almost speechless right now. And all I can even think of right now is...

How dare you. You do not know anything about me, nor can you just pull something from nothing. And you should be ashamed of yourself. We are both grown adults, and will get there on our own.

And I don't know why you have some sick obsession with trying to 'help' me as you did. I will get there on my own, thank you very much. You did the same thing with him, and look where it got me. Stay. Out. Of. My. Business.

(ooc: Kay! This is for the mun's. This is directed at Sen, after
first this
than this
And lastly, this

Home

Sun, 22 Jun 2008 21:12:07 GMT

I...I'm going home for a bit. Took time off work. Bringing the cats with me.

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 19:29:23 GMT

I'm thinking about throwing another party at the house. I'll admit, I'm terribly bored without a class to take, and they sort of cut my hours at work, as well as changed when I'm working. (Monday for eight hours,Tuesday night for six, and Wednesday night for six) Would anyone be up to a little party at my place? I'll be willing to cook anything.

Painting the apartment was fun, Eiji and Oishi. I liked the color, and your place has a really nice layout!

Inui-kun, Sengoku-kun...have you started to think about what you guys would like to eat at your wedding? I don't mean to bug, but I would like to practice a little bit...

So...I think I've got a crush on Dan. I don't know how it happened, or why it's happened, maybe I should blame Sengoku, but...He came over the other night, and I was...kinda sort of flirting and shy. This can't be good.

Congrats!

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 18:29:58 GMT

Inui-kun, Happy Birthday. I would like to take you out, as you did for my birthday. Maybe we can start to discuss what you would like to eat at the wedding? Your fiance is more than welcome to come along. I can pick you up when it's convenient?

Dan-kun and Ryou-kun, Congratulations on making vice captains of your respective teams! I'm sure both of you will work hard to prove yourselves, of that, I have no doubt!

Summer Session

Sat, 31 May 2008 21:45:17 GMT

Well, it seems like that teacher that teaches Culinary Lab has still be out on sick-leave. I hope everything is alright...but that means the one summer class I was going to take, is no longer available. Looks like I have a free summer. I might not want to tell Emiko for a couple of weeks though, or she'll weasel her way into trying to move down here or something! ~~At least her VollyBall camp starts soon.~~

Car Trouble

Thu, 29 May 2008 01:08:21 GMT

So, after I dropped Emiko off back in Tokyo, and was a block from home, my car sputtered and died. I ended up pushing it into the drive way, and than monday morning, calling a tow truck to take it to a shop. So far, the guys haven't found anything wrong yet...sort of frustrating.

Tezuka. He's the one that's made ~~Sei~~ Yukimura so happy. All of his problems have disappeared. We knew each other barely three months, and he made me forget the past and learn to love. And how much heartache hurts. And barely three months later, he is a new man, and yet again, I am incomplete. To learn to love was valuable, but to learn how to not trust was more so. And to think, the one I looked up to so much in Junior High, whom I knew I could never be as good as...was good enough for Yukimura, when I was not.

I've promised myself over and over again that I would forget about him, but it simply isn't as easy. It hurts less, yes, but now, the loneliness is settling in. Everyone is so happy around me, Oishi and Eiji got engaged, and it's almost like...all the single people I know, are living, or at least semi-living, in my house. So, it's strange to feel so lonely when I have such good company. Dan-kun, in particular, is a joy to be around. He's so sweet and kind and full of life. It...scares me that I may be starting to wish a little bit that I could be brave and fearless and get closer to the other...but yet, it's such a scary thought, to be burned a second time. It makes you wary of reaching out into the flames.

I can't believe it.

Tue, 20 May 2008 03:54:38 GMT

...I brought Emiko back with me. I swear, I fail at life. I just can't say no to her! To the roommates, I'm terribly sorry. I made her promise not to bother any of you. She's sleeping with me, so no one's going to be put out, I swear.

I have no idea what to do, though. I had asked in advance to have today off, but the rest of the week, I still work, and...I have Emiko. It's not like I can just bring her with me...I dunno what to do. Just can't say no to that 10-year old smile.

Oh, and before I forget, Emiko says, and I quote: "Nii-san's old teammates, come and play with me! I'm older and prettier now and can do more now!" She...also says "Seii-nii! Come and take me for ice cream!"

Back to Tokyo

Sat, 17 May 2008 04:29:03 GMT

Dan-kun, Ryou-kun and Kajimoto-kun, I wanted to let you guys know that I'm going back to Tokyo tomorrow morning. If you guys would like to come, you're more than welcome, but if you're staying at the house, can someone please take care of the kitten's? I can't take them home with me, unfortunately.

Emiko called me, and begged me to come home for the weekend. She wants me to, of course, take her back to Osaka for the week...but I doubt that that's a good idea. ~~She's hard to say no to though.~~

Spring time fun~

Fri, 09 May 2008 22:50:08 GMT

I think i owe a lot to Dan-kun, Kajimoto-kun and Ryou-kun for sort of making me self-force my bad mood out the door. It's been a lot of fun having everyone here, and being able to cook and not worry about eating the leftovers! Plus, I don't have to do dishes.

Emiko is complaining and throwing a fit. She wants to come down and spend a week with me...I might see if going down there for a weekend might be enough for her...but somehow, I doubt it.